Whats Love at 20 Years of Age?!

Poking around my pc I found some interesting journal drafts written from a younger me, 20 years old (almost 8 years ago). My journal posts of the time could be best described as written by a guy who was desperate to find 'the one'. I curse society for making me so o.c.d about finding love at that age, it was a real obsession of mine. I remember meeting so many potentials and having nothing work out, listening to break up songs to make me feel better lol. I would either go in not interested enough or too interested. Reading my old journal post from my very first holiday interstate (which I took alone) really reminded me of this past need.

I read of my meeting a new guy (arranged online) and having him freeze me out of his life directly after we met. At the end I sum up and said I'd be more honest with myself and not let anyone trick me into feeling I had found the one and make me feel down again- I know I didn't take my own advice, cos I made the same mistakes in the years following LOL. It's funny reading it from my now viewpoint. Life has changed, I feel that I have found the right one for me now (1 and a half years together so far) and we met at a time where I had accepted being single and was very happy within myself. I wonder if all young people feel the pressure of having someone, it can lead to bad feelings when things don't work out and it really isn't your whole lifes need.

If I could talk to my younger self I would say hi Aiden @ 20yrs old,
Don't take meets so seriously, don't take disinterest personally (cos many people will like you), don't take the need for a partner so seriously, don't get too cut when ones not interested just look for another who is, and JUST HAVE FUN! Meet nice people, make lasting friendships (cos they're more important) and learn from each different experience and different personality.. AND most important, which I did near the end of the search- if he calls you than he is keen, great! But all others who don't bother enough to stay in contact and say they are interested but don't show it, just CUT them out of your life immediately! It's the business of finding love, don't waste your time on other peoples commitment issues, value yourself!..
Love, Ace @ 27yrs old :)

P.s When the right one for you comes along, you will just know cos it will be so cruisy and different and only then will you really know what love is and realise the rest was just 'hope' and probably a bit of lust!