Unreguyable

What is up with guys? The first one I met after becoming single ran for the hills (he had his own issues).. Than, a few weeks ago I had a guy walk out on me.. He said he had to go buy cigarettes and would be back in 5 Min's and I'm still waiting for him to come back! Where is any sense of decency in that? After that, I promised to only make time for the decent ones, but even that doesn't work!

The worst thing is that so many weekends of late, I have kept Saturdays free so that I can meet up with guys, and nothing happens. It's all in the works, everything is planned, all is going well.. Saturday comes around, and nothing.. One guy even sent me a text saying he was on his way and would text me in 30 Min's to let me know where he was and I'm still waiting for his txt! This was after he screwed me around before, I should have known he would let me down even if he did make promises. OK, so this weekend has to be the LAST STRAW! Another guy, all keen to catch up then nothing. So stupid! How hard would it have been for him to reply to my text?

It's so irritating. I seem to be trying so hard to fill this void in my life with guys (or at least a new guy friend) and its starting to really upset me now. I really don't think I am meant to meet any great guys right yet and I have kinda accepted that, but the problem for me is that my ex has a 2nd boyfriend since me and I just feel like why should he be happy and not me? He doesn't deserve it! So why does he get it all? Just picks up his stuff, goes and leaves me with a month of mess and a chronic single dateless life!

So what can I do? I feel I should just admit defeat for now. Guys are just probably going to keep screwing me around. I'm not going to keep weekends free and keep spending them alone! I read once the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different outcomes.. So maybe I need to change the over and over again.. I think that I should stop keeping my weekends free for guys. I think that in this single time of my life, I should be focusing on building myself back up. I should be going to the gym everyday on the weekends (I have already started this) and that should get my priority. I also feel that I should be making more plans with friends, I'm sick and tired of being at home alone all of the time it sucks! This isn't living.. The only fun days of my week should NOT be work days, that sucks! The time for a change is NOW! The resurrection of my social life as a single guy!.. Who's with me?!