The Little Worries

I'm starting to think it's just my over- active brain.. I'm in the middle of another busy week and I find myself feeling down again. I don't know what has happened to my little world, but I feel like nothing is going right anymore. I find myself feeling kinda alone in my issues again and living inside my head and it sicks! I'm not as happy person when I'm feeling like this and unfortunately everything tends to suffer from my appetite, to my gym workouts.

So here's the worries of the week.. Last Friday I found a lump on my stomach muscle just below my left rib and it took all weekend for me to learn the urgency of maybe going to the doctors and having it checked out. It's been on my mind since Sunday and a worry for me. On Monday I called the doctor to make an appointment and couldn''t get in until Thursday (tomorrow) which sucks! I just want to know what it is and put my mind at rest, once thats sorted out it will be a small weight off my shoulders.

Problem number two is the guy I like, continued! I know I always post about this of late, but it is a mind space user. We had an awesome chat last week where he re-affirmed his feelings for me and I felt good after that. Than he said on Monday that he wasnt sure when he'd see me again as he's getting sick again but not as bad. He also said that he would have heaps of spare time in a month when his work closes. I asked him whether I would have to wait a month to see him then but I haven't heard even a word from him since. As it stands, this is prob like 4 weeks since I have seen him. I know he has been sick, but it does bother me a little that he's been able to work, but not been able to catch up with me.. Maybe I'm just different in my thinking? If I like someone enough, I will do anything to see them as much as possible and the fact that he isn't doing that for me has me concerned. Maybe I'm just over thinking it all? Am I a bad person for getting a bit annoyed of waiting? I really like the guy.. He's been sick and I really want to give things a chance, but I am worried that it's not going anywhere. This year it seems like I'm always waiting for tomorrow.. Wheres that fast forward button?!

I think that I need to prescribe myself with heaps of friend time to chill and let off some steam, stat!

Update- the lump turned out to be (in my doctors opinion) nothing too serious but he is sending me to a surgeon to check it out and see if it might be worth removing.